New Year and New Life

Whoa. Murah rezeki juga yer diri ini. After only few interviews (few ker? macam banyak jer) at last I got a job offer. Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah. Ini semua dikatakan rezeki. Salary higher than previous job thats for sure. Situated near to my old office. Walking distance from Pavillion less than 5 minutes n from KLCC pulak 15 minutes. Ok la tu kan. Makin panjang kaki ini nak pergi Pavillion.

Btw, I'm not doing audit anymore. Phew! Lari dari audit memang dah lama nak. Baru sekarang dapat. Sekarang buat account. Issue cheque, PV n etc. Still byk kena belajar. After few months tak kerja otak jadi blur kejap.

My new job tak boleh cakap ape2 sangat. Baru 2 days including today. Better than last office I hope. Internet connection ade. Tapi tak boleh connect to Facebook. Whoaa!! Yahoo!, Gmail, google still accessible. OK lah kan.

Kelas start yesterday. Penat! First day job and first day class. Tapi tidur lambat juga last night. Bergayut di telefon. Hahaha. My new favorite past time :p. This sitting just 1 paper je. Lesson learned. Tak boleh nak tanggung 2 papers if buat part time. Besides that kena jimat. Banyak debts sebab goyang kaki dulu.

So my life sekarang =










Right now tgh lunch but tak makan today. On diet. My weight dah naik balik. Adoi!! Penat turun. Nevermind. Joging, exercising kena rajin. Ade pemangkin. Boleh lah.

Hurm...have to go now. Kerja berlambak. Tak nak balik lambat. Nak rest kat rumah.

Back To Square One

Exam dah habis. Yabedabedo!! Lepas satu azab. Lama tggu exam habis. Tunggu je la lagi 2 bulan nak dapat results. Time tu confirm takut.

The ques macam soalan membunuh diri. Berganda-ganda susah. Mak aii. Kalau macam ni lah standard lama la nampak gayanya nak habis semua.Tapi perjuangan mesti diteruskan. Cannot and would not give up.

So ape plan after exam? Tido puas2. Kemas bilik. Macam kapal pecah dah bilik ni. Back to square one la. Dah tak boleh nak relax. Dulu tak payah buat ape2. Just sit in the room and study. Next week jadik babysitter Aisyah. I have plan for both of us. Movies, baking, and arts. And yes, I will make sure she study. Habislah budak kecik tu. Tak tau either enough time or not.

Next year gonna be a whole new year. New life, new place, new mission and the brand new 'Alia. Cewahh..ape yang new pun tak tau. Wait and see jelah.

Btw, Atiqah is coming back for good to M'sia after 3 years berhempas-pulas di Australia. 25th December she'll reach LCCT. At last ade jugak member kat rumah ni. Berkotak-kotak barang die. She told me that. I wonder where she will puts all her things.

Argh..lapar plak. Nak makan jap. Daa..

A bit here..a bit there..

"Alia, kalo VRI bleh release esok bgtau la. Bleh akak print siap2 pagi2 esok"
"Dah bleh la kak. Everything dah clear. Tapi akak check la in case alignment lari ke"

Minggu ni jer 2 accounts released. Fuh, lega tak yah cakap la. Last minute punya account. I was so stressed last week. 3 accounts FYE Dec.Supposedly, 31 July kena submit but nasib baik sgt2 bleh extend 6 days. Manager tak yah ckp la. Skit2.."Alia, where is ur ......""Alia, can I review ur file".

I was almost breakdown. I don't mind working until 11pm but I don't have transport. Marini was kind enough to sent me back a few times. Last week almost everyday I reached home 12midnight. keje, keje, keje...work, work, work...

But to tell u the truth, I was tension but I don't think sampai tak bleh rehat. I went to lunch as usual, a bit of chatting, Facebooking. Actually k gak like this. But not frequent sgt. Nnt boleh pengsan.

Some may wonder why at the end of the month baru nak submit. The account should have ready 3 months after the yr end. Tapi biasa la, client..1 bulan baru nak bg. If u get client yg memahami, yg bleh corporate then, it will be no prob. But wat about client yg when u tak push tak buat. At the end of the day, yg kena auditor. Yg bg account lambat..client. Fair tak? Takkan..

I have to wait for few weeks je lagi.. Then I 'm done here. No more PKF..no more Marilyn, inspector gadget, Vincent (these are the best part)..N this time I will ensure...NO TURNING BACK!!

Die Dtg Lagi

Kringg..kringg..

"Hello. Alia ade org from ___SB dtg bagi doc. Dtg depanlah ambil."
"OK".."aaarghh"..kopi tertumpah. Inilah akibatnya terlalu nervous (nervous ker??) Bila dgrnya someone come to send doc from this co I noe who is that person.

So, berlari-larilah saya di dalam office menuju ke depan. Apa motif berlari pun tak tau.

Sampai kat depan receptionist bagi envelope. Aik knape die ade lagi..ngatkan dah pergi after drop the doc.

"ade kena sign mane2 tak?"
"tak de"
"Lari ker?" "aah..byk keje la"
"owh" dan die pun bgn menuju ke pintu kluar..

Bila samapai di tempat rupa2nye signing pages ker. Kena buat attestation ni. K.Ina mintak hantar kat Joan coz she will send it together with others. Bila nak jumpa Ms Joan lalu lift.

"eh, tak turun lagi?"
"hurm..tak. Lambat la lift ni"sambil jawab senyum2 malu..alala..comelnyer :)
"jgn guna lift yg ni. Guna yg sbelah". Padahal sama jer. disebabkan tak de modal nak borak, kluar lah ayat yg tak logik.

Balik from Ms Joan punya bilik, Marini tegur. "Alia dah tersenyum. Tadi tension jer. Nak tegur pun takot. Siap berlari2 dalam ofis"

Wheewww...yeah..he changed my mood. Just like that. One super short meeting can change my entire day :) thanks to him..hopefully will meet him later.

I resign

Dengan bangganya saya telah meletak jawatan minggu lps..nk update last week tak berkesempatan coz I was so bz..everyday blk lambat until nak update pun tak menyempat.

I have no backup job..so I am actively searching for a job..kalo tak de nmpk gayanya ade lah yg makan pasir next month..InsyaAllah dpt..

Accidently Shopping

Pernah tak any of u yg 'tershopping'?meaning...tak de intention nak shopping plus cash kat tgn tak de plus tak de credit card tapi at last shopping jugak?

Tu yg terjadik pada diri ini. Gara2 excited tgk org shopping and I was only doing window shopping (I wont shop if I dont have intention to do so) akhirnya ter'accident' shopping.

Lepas tgk Transformers kat OU, Yana nak beli cardigan. Lepas tu tgh jalan2 near TGV, I stopped then hold this one shoe kat this one kedai (I forgot the name of the shop). Lawa, cun, cute. Bila tgk price..hurm..tak mahal pun. Then I put down. Haiza pulak ambik.

"Eh, comel la kasut ni"

"Memang la comel".

"Miss, can u gv saiz 6".

There u go. Haiza tried the shoe. I cont browsing the shoes in the shop. Yana pun. Haiza decided to buy the shoe. Then, she saw another shoe. Ok lah. tak pe. Her money. Not mine. Hati ni mcm geram jer tapi tahan coz Haiza beli 2 kasut n one of it kasut yg I really2 like. I reminded myself.No shopping Alia.

Then we continued walking. Singgah pulak kat F.O.S. Masuk as usual. We were inside there almost 30mins. Believe it or not. I almost buy a t-shirt. Haiza n Yana pun almost buy something for themselves.

Later, we went inside Padini (dah pulak) since I asked for it. Just for fun. Thought tak lama dalam tu but rupa2nya Haiza bought (I'm not sure how many) pants and shirts. Hahaha..bershopping sakan rupanya Haiza ni..

After that we wanna go for dinner. On the way to Pizza Hut, we met Aidil n Mimi. When Mimi said we bershopping sakan, dgn nada yg agak berlagak I replied

"Mie, Alia tak shopping tau. Haiza and Yana jer". I was proud with myself. Haha..

But then, I cant resist myself bila masuk WH. I really like this pant and a blouse. I really wanna buy it. But I dont have cash on hand or even a credit card. And these two young ladies pulak provoked me to buy. And I did. I bought it. N using wat do u think? I borrowed from Haiza.

And there u go. From dpt menahan nafsu nk shopping at last I bought things I dont need. Worse, I used someone credit card.

:)

11 months ago....

Height:159cm
Weight:49kg

Last week (30 June 2009)

Height:159cm (still the same)
Weight:______kg (a few kilos bertambah)

Went to the same place as 11 months ago to do audit. But this time I went alone. Sungguh membosankan. Met the same faces.

12 pm sumthing..

A: Tak pergi lunch ker? Takkan diet kot.
Me: Belom lagi pukul 1. Jap lagi la.
A: Awak dah nampak...gemuk skit (darn!!)
Me: Ramai ckp macam tu.
A: Tak byk skit jer. (Ayat cover ceh..)sbb suka ati kot.
Kwn A: Sbb nak kawin kot (wow!! assumption tak bleh blah)
Me: Tu lagi jauh. Calon pun tak de.

A dan kwnnye gelak...and I walked away from the place back to my laptop.

I was so embarrassed for wat both of them said. (malu2 kucing..hihi..)..dari awak tu yg kecik. tak padan ngan umur nak ckp org.huh!!

I gain weight not because I'm getting married nor I am 'suka ati'.

Hectic

Last week was tiring. Almost everyday ade je aktiviti yg melibatkan peluh. Monday training netball, wed and thurs training bowling, fri netball lagi and sat training futsal and bowling tournament. Everything because IAFG (Inter Accounting Firm Games) 2009. But bowling jadik reserve je. Pakai kasut jer then I walked here and there tgk score co lain.

Last sat I will say it was fun. For the very first time, we hang out together outside office. Thought not all of us managed to come, however we can do it again next time.

The bowling tournament was held at Sunway Pyramid (not sure wat is the name of the bowling alley). 15 audit firms participated in the game. The game started at 10.30am.
Overall, our team did quite well but since there is no scoreboard therefore, I am not sure how was our performance. And thanx to our supporters yg dtg (compare to last year thn ni ramai)edna, ahmad, CK, Pei Yee, Chee Hong, Mr Lai. the best part was bila dpt mkn free lunch.

That evening, we went to Cheras for futsal training. At first main pakai jeans coz malas nak tukar. Unfortunately, akibat berebut bola, jeans terkoyak. Luckily kat lutut. Later I will send for a repair.

After changed the pants lagi 1 incident happened. My ankle terseliuh. Pun gara2 berebut bola. Not my fault tau. K.salina nak rebut bola from me. Sakit gile. N now my ankle tgh bengkak.

After the practice we went to PapaRich at Tmn Tasik Pemaisuri. Lama jugak kat situ. Byk sesi luahan berlaku. Psl org ni mcm ni n etc. K.ana terpaksa mendengar luahan junior2 dia. As a reminder to us, jadikkan lah kisah yg berlaku kpd rakan2 jr yg lain bila jadik senior.

I have to bear the tiredness as the schedule will be tighter this week as the Netball match will be next Tues on the 7th July. All the best to us!

Life As Student

My body is aching and I am so damn tired rite now. This is bcoz last week and this week tetiba actively involve in sports. Futsal, netball and bowling. All this because IAFG. can't wait to start and can't wait for it to finish too.

Sometimes I wonder how I can be so active during my school days.

6am -Bgn pegi skolah

7am -sampai skola. baca buku, borak2, gelak2.

7.20am - Assembly. Klas start. best time bila Pend Jasmani. Bleh lari2.

10.15am - Rehat. Makan roti or kekdg tak mkn langsung

10.30am - Sambung klas...

1.10pm - Yes!! skolah hbs. ready for Ko-k or klas tambahan or stay back utk
activiti tamb

3pm/5pm - Tusyen (sampai la pkl 7pm)

Roughly this is how my life was back in school. tapi sometimes, my days can b so hectic where i had to go for tuition after ko-k kat skolah. dgn bag berat, buku di tgn I went to tuition. Naik LRT, naik bas. jalan kaki baru sampai. Where I got all the strength? I also dunno.

Blk dah penat. Mlm buat h.work. kekdg tu bertimbun with buku scrap lagi. My eyes boleh tahan smpi lebih pukul 12am. Esok bgn pkl 6am.

But now nak buat mcm tu pun boleh pengsan kekadang. Is it bcoz I am being lazy rite now? Dulu stay back tak mkn. Skarg kalo tak mkn boleh pening tak bleh buat keje. I wish I can be just the day I was a student.

Aduh..sakitnye

Mata ku sakit :( Semalam pergi klinik and the doctor bg MC. He asked nak 1 or 2 hari but mengingatkan kerja yg banyak di ofis I only asked for 1 day and now I'm suffering.

The doctor tak sure what had caused the bengkak and it is not a ketumbit as I thought. It can be from virus, bacteria or even infection *sigh*. And in this week jer dah 2 org came to his clinic bcoz of this n total case is 5 in Ulu Kelang. Weird..

Nasib baik I went to see him if not it will getting bigger. Scary huh?? Tapi so far ok. Cuma sakit skit2 jer.

Cepat la baik mata ku!! Dah la sememangnye sepet. Bertambah sepet la mata ni.

Familia :)

Happy Anniversary Umi n Ayah :).. today is their 31st Wedding Anniversary. Alhamdulllah our family's relationship getting stronger :) But we didn't go anywhere since it is weekday and tak sempat nak buat or plan apa2. But maybe Friday we will go dinner together.

I never write anything about my family in this blog before. Well, let me tell you briefly about my big happy family.

I have 7 siblings (4 brothers and 2 sisters) and I am no 4 (the middle). The unique thing about us is we were born every 2 years :) and started with A.Long in year 1979.

Currently my 2 sisters are in Australia. one is in Melbourne, Atiqah and this year is her final year and the other one is Angah in Brisbane (she will finish her study next year kot). Beside them, my 2 brothers are in Egypt. There have been there more than 5 years. I always for 4 of them to come back :(

In year 2006, A.Long married to K.Nora. My first in-law. Now they have 2 daughters, Siti Aisyah Umairah and Siti Nur Adawiyah (K.Nora is expecting to give birth to their 3rd children this July. Gender: Unknown)

So, basically, our house only left 4 of us (umi, ayah, A.Ajun and me of course).

So, there u go. A little info about my family. I always pray for their bless and happiness.

p/s: To be known soon in the picture above is referring to A.Long and K.Nora 3rd children..

Thing That Make Me Think

Lunch..at last!!..the moment that I have been waiting for..lapar lorh today...while walking back to the office I received a call...a call that I have been waiting..dpt ker tak hny panggilan itu yang mampu memberi jawapan..

"may I speak to Ms Alia pls"

"Yes speaking"

"R u available to talk right now?"

"Yes I am"

Bla..bla..bla...

"OK, so bila Cik 'Alia boleh dtg ambil appoinment letter?"

That is all about it...I went to Bank Islam last week for an interview as Customer Service Officer..if u wonder what the position is all about..ala..org yg korang nampak wkt pergi bank yg jaga branch tu..n I got it..at Ampang Branch (thought kena campak luar KL.hahahaha..di sini juga la rezeki ku)

Actually I am not very keen to work as C.S.O bcoz tak de kena mengena dengan account..even I hate my current job it doesn't mean I want to leave it behind entirely..Marini was shocked..others biasa jer but most of them said I shouldn't accept the offer, think about what I want..komen Ruzanna yang paling panjang (hahaha..u make me think)..and some said take the appoinment letter n see what they are offering me..

During the interview, the interviwers (2 of them) considered me as being strict and garang..huh!!kasar I can accept..strict?? They even told me I was not up to their standard..teruk jugak rasanya kena dengan diorang..and I thought with that kind of responds and it is already 1 week after the interview memang ingat tak dapat..but this is what people call rezeki..yg kita tak sangka itulah yang dtg..alhamdulillah..

But now I am still considering it..ayah said go for it..umi said it is up to me..me??30%, 70%..tak kot..byk kena fikir but the possibility for me to accept memang ade..I always made decision last minute..ckp tak nak tup2 buat pulak..hehehe..will update later either I accept it or not..

4 am..

4 am in the morning. TV terpasang..Disney channey plak tu. Laptop pun on juga. What I am doing actually? Early in the morning. Esok keje. Cik 'Alia tak tido ker? Macam ne nak tido. Byk sangat benda dlm kepala ni. Kerja..mcm na nak buat duit lebih (short of cash..as usual)..holiday (again?? get real)..belajar.

Aduh...my work..tak siap lagi..alamak..kena buat alasan lagi ni..no!no! no! enough of excuses..get to work alia.where go all ur semangat kerja yg dulu2?? mau cari keje lain.hahaha.tapi tak de rezeki plak. lapar la pulak. no way I am going to eat anything. dalam proses mahu menurunkan berat badan.

Tadi ada org tny what do I think about his bf. Apalah as if no other ques. Answer truthfully pls...hurm...otak ni ligat berfikir bagaimana mahu menjawab soalan dengan jujur sambil menjaga hati org lain (I dont really know how to talk softly..too frank usually). To tell u the truth your bf ......... (jawapan terpaksa dirahsiakan). No further comment terus org tu logoff coz she said she's bored. Ok. Apa2 je la. Tadi minta jawapan jujur. I was being too honest kot. Sorry babe. This is life. Sometimes yg menyakitkan itu yang mengajar kita tentang kehidupan, tentang manusia yang byk hipokrit.

Peace :)

U lost, I dont

Two things happened to me this few days and it's all because i'm being honest (not truly but most of the time :p). Memang la at first tu I was like what these peeps are talking about n who should I trust but lama2 when 1 people contact me and yg lain plak pn sama so its turned out to be I get to know the whole pic and i have no prob with them at all. That's the best thing kan. Even org slalu ckp dont trust people 100%, tp being transparent tak salah kn. Kita tak rugi ape2 pun as long as we being sincere. And surely the other party told lies tp tak kisah la, sakit ati tu ade tp as long everything clear should be no prob and I am glad I helped them in fixing their relationship :). Yg menipu tu nasib la. It is up to them. Malas dah nak layan!!

"Honesty is the best policy"

Happy?? I do not know

Melihat kebahagian org disekeliling aku membuatkan aku terasa seperti sunyi. Kekadang perasaan ini ingin skali mempunyai teman yang setia teman diri ini. walaupun aku takut untuk berhadapan dengan situasi itu lg tp sebagai manusia naluri untuk berkasih syg tu sentiasa ada. tak mungkin aku dpt menghindari perasaan itu.

Namun, aku bahagia apabila melihat kwn2 dan kenalan aku mengakhiri zaman bujang atau pun bertunang. Walau tak rapat tetapi melihat mereka bahagia cukup untuk mengembirakan aku. Melibatkan diri dalam persiapan itu pun sudah cukup puas (ade yg ckp..i have something wrong somewhere). Asal ada jemputan kahwin aku akan cuba tunaikan untuk menghadiri majlis itu.

Cinta ker???

Mencintai dan menyanyagi seseorg yg kita pernah berjumpa walau sekali adalah tidak mustahil..aku percaya pada cinta pandangan pertama…byk kali perkara ini berlaku…waktu skolah dl ia boleh dianggap sebagai ‘crush’ tp bila perkara ini terjadi sekarang aku tidak lagi menganggap perasaan itu hny suka tp cinta dan sayang …walau hny di alam siber kami berjumpa dgn tidak pernah dgr suara tetapi siapa sangka pertemuan 15 minit sebelum itu boleh mengubah perasaan..btol la kata org dr mata jatuh ke hati…

Ade org yg beranggapan selepas putus cinta akibat di tipu amat sukar utk mencari penganti…aku tidak percaya kerana bg aku kita semua telah ditakdirkn akan berjumpa dengan pasangan masing2.. Cuma kita tidak tahu bila dan di mana..mane tahu jodoh kita adalah org yg selalu kita jumpa di dalam LRT atau pun sahabat sendiri (aku harap ini tidak akan berlaku)…bg aku perpisahan dulu adalah kerana tidak ade jodoh..bak kata mak aku kita kena percaya pada konsep jodoh…kalau tidak susah nnt…

Namun..sampai bila perasaan syg ini akan kekal? Org yg berkahwin berpuluh2 tahun sehingga rambut berubah dari hitam ke putih pn boleh bercerai…tapi aku???yg hny berjumpa di alam siber..sekadar hai,hai,bye,bye..macam mana la agaknya…bolehkah perasaan ini kekal lama…aku mengharapkan ia akan berkekalan tapi…..argh…kalo cakap skarang tak de maknanya…aku tau mungkin aku hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan sebab itu aku tidak mengharap apa2 dari perhubungan ini melainkan persahabatan kami kekal…

Ada beberapa kali aku cakap ayat ini ‘no one can attract my attention..i don’t see any guy that can make me say he’s handsome, smart or good looking anymore…but only him..’..aduh…teruk jugakkan bila pikir balik tapi disebabkan aku pun malas nak pikir hal2 berkaitan dengan cinta… aku sudah puas menangis,ditipu,dihina,ditinggalkan.. aku sekarang lebih berhati2..apa yg berlaku pernah berlaku benar2 mengajar aku siapa ‘LELAKI’..dengan pengalaman mereka yg aku sayangi lagi ditambah pula kritikan pedas oleh seseorg yg mengatakan aku amat mudah utk menerima lelaki walau hny berkenalan tidak lama..maka kini aku berpegang pada prinsip ‘ignorance is a bliss’ :-)

Rimas....

tetiba today I feel so rimas...argh...work loads..my sisters' things...gosh..a few days to go before I'm going to Melbourne to see my beloved sisters but things still hvn't done yet...makin lama makin byk la brg yg kena beli..I think btol la my bag will full with their stuff...

A lot of things that I'm thinking right know...should I apply new work? There are a few vacancies that I am considering right now..nk update resume yg malas ni..money always become an issue to me lately...coz now I am broke buying them stuff...another reason to change work...

but hey...since I will b taking a week off I'm quite ok with it...so far I still can handle this pressure at work...think again about work...I just answered 'How much u hate or love ur work' quiz..and the answer....ehem..I TOTALLY HATE my job..hahaha...I think its time for me to apply for a new job eventhough mayb middle of this yr there will b another assesment but the motivation is not there anymore...if you ask me do I like what I'm doing right now my answer would be Im fine with it..neutral..neither hate nor like...but I hate the env here...the people..urgh...if u read my post about the meeting mayb u have some idea wat's going on here...

Do pray for me ya for my future..and everything go well as I plan...amin...

Nice smile with the great teeth

lagu Lucky dendangan Jason Mraz berbunyi di telefon ku menandakan ade msg yg baru diterima. Owhh...Laila rupa nye. Msg nya berbunyi begini: "dh pakai braces. sgt hodoh"..welcome to da club Laila. Bertambah lagi sorg kwn aku yg pki braces. Terngat balik zaman aku memakainya 8 thn lps (yes ppl..that's why I have a teratur teeth..hahaha). Dan skarg patut pki retainer tp malas + app card dah hilang.

Sewaktu aku memakai braces dulu tak ramai yg pakai lg. Skarg dh mcm ala-ala trend plak. in less than 3 month rasa2 mcm 3 org kawan aku yg pakai. Tak pe nak lawa punya psl. Bg yg tak penah rasa and bakal merasa pakai braces ni, let me tell u, sakit gile mula2 pakai. rasa mcm nk tercabut gigi tu. makan tu tak bleh,ini tak bleh. yg keras lagi la. Dah la aku pakai 2 days kot b4 raya..hahaha...mmg kena pantang la makan wkt raya. tapi aku blasah jer sume. first day lagi dah makan kacang goreng. hehehe.. Ade beberapa perkara menarik yg berlaku sepanjang 2 thn aku pki braces.

1. my cousin pukul/tumbuk or wateva yg bleh dipggl 2 days after aku pakai. bertambah sakit n aku menangis. nasib skit jer. she spoiled my day actually
2. ade bdk yg melihat aku ala2 mcm alien. siap pggl abg die nk tunjuk gigi aku..so funny.. wat can i do besides smiling back at them :)
3. every month pegi appoinment jarang kalo tak de org temankn..slalunyer ruzanna yg teman. I think bcoz she liked to look at my braces. ntah ape yg special pn tak tau. bila tny die juz jwb "i juz like to look at it"
4. lps pegi appoinment bleh meronggeng kat KLCC sbb bangunan yg aku pg tu sbelah jer KLCC. Bangunan Angkasa Raya. I still remember ade skali tu aku n laila pegi mkn BR. kaya sungguh kami.
5. I will choosed appointment ari Jumaat coz that day blk awal. Then esok cuti. seronok nye..pastu pakai bj seragam. takde sape tau kitaorg skolah ape dl. mmg la ppl will pandang lain mcm tp wat the heck. tak kisah pn.
6. org lain kena makan roti,bubur or ape2 yg lembut dlm masa semggu lps pakai. Aku??kuih, rendang,kuah kacang..name it..i juz ate. ask me how i can ate those thing tp aku tak tau. tak kunyah kot. org lain kurus bila pakai tp aku tak maintain jer.
7. first week pki kena ulser berlambak.then the dr. gv me sumthg yellowish to tampal kat besi2 tu so that tak bergesel ngan my bibir. sakit sgt.
8. few times trtelan getah kecik2 tu. getah2tu utk cptkn pros rapatkn the space between teeth.coz mls nk cabut kot.getah tu still aku simpan.mcm2 color ade.
   
9. my dentist, Dr David, always puji me i hv a great structure n i take care of my braces well. Ayah ckp mmg la die puji coz his money gak yg melayang masuk poket Dr. David but i admit that he is nice tak kasar mayb wkt bukak n ketatkn the wire jer kot.
10. everytime dtg appointment wire akan diketatkn.guna player. n makin lama makin tebal wire tu. makin sakit jdk nye.usually i dont eat the whole day after pg appoinment.
    
11. i miss i braces. i like to wear it coz i feel diff. now im suppose to wear a retainer. it more complicated than braces. aku hny berthn for 2 yrs jer after that masuk UM dh tak teratur. ade niat nk pg buat retainer blk coz gigi kita sentiasa bergerak, so i dont want itto b back to normal. mahal la nk buat skarg. rm5k.see how,when i have the time.hehehe...
    

according to my siz, org yg pki braces ni kalo tdo or trjg the gigi will ade satu sound mcm bergesel.aku pn tak tau btol ker tak since i'm the one yg tdo. n if u wear bfore ur baby tooth tumbuh, bersedialah utk mnghadapi satu lagi penyakit. which is bila gigi bongsu tu tumbuh msti something wrong will happen and kna buat surgery like me. which costed me a lot.

so to those yg br pakai n niat nk pakai..welcome to the club..love to see those smile..with the great teeth.. :)

A Boring Dept Meeting

hurm...early this morning we had a dept meeting with marilyn. As usual nothing much that had been discussed in the meeting except to update our status on the cases that we r handling and some others. Well, since one of the management account hasn't come in so I do not hv any job to do (well..actually I have tp skit jer nk kna finalise jer), Marilyn put me as asst to Pei Yee one of the senior. I dont mind working with her but the reactions from some of the colleagues made me annoyed. They laughed. Somekind of laugh which I knoe ade makna disebalik ketawa itu. I just ignored by talking to Mashi. Nasib baik Mashi ade..die tmpt cover gak.

When we went to our place Marini came to me and asked me if I realized that they laughed just now and I said yes. But I said I dont care wat they thinking but I think I know why and I have my own reason why I acted like that. Just to defend myself from been blame for something I didn't do. Honestly, I feel like resingning from my job. The environment is not the same as before plus with others issues. But I'm stuck. If I want to find another job and with current econ I noe it's hard for me to get a new job. Plus, I have my own plan which I know if I resign my parents will be so mad.

I'm a slow learner. I'm still trying to cope with this job eventhough audit is not my interest. I need to bertahan as long as I can.

I'm Confuse

Maybe wat im thinking is wrong but it might be correct..I just read his wall and there is one comment from a girl that make me ques about his status..btol ke die still single??in the comment there are few words yg membuatkan ku musykil such as:

mmg kalo dilihat secara kasar mcm tak de ape2..bak kata isma ala...ade jer org prmpn pggl bf org lain syg..honey n etc..n according to her mane tau the girl jenis yang mcm tu kn...hopefully isma btol...she really confident on what she said..kalo tak btol u r the first one yg aku akan cr...

but if btol die dh berpunya as usual i will back off like i always did..furthermore,ade one of my fren yg risik about us to him..n he said our r.ship biase2 jer (which i cant agree more
) and he contactedt me if die sunyi..looks like i am his last person on earth bila tak de sape utk die hubungi..terasanye...tp isma ckp jugak...sunyi can bring 2 meanings...positive and negetive.

positive when:

• dalam erti kata lain die rindu (hahaha..as if he missed me la)

negetive when:

• die bosan dan tak de sape2 maka aku menjadi pilihannya

Hopefully yg positive la sbb kalo yg positive mmg 110% i will b so happie :) gerenti senyum tak lekang for a few weeks...ahax..