Sanggup Ke?

Sanggup ke nak hadapi semua tu? Kalau ikutkan hati rasa tak nak langsung jadi. Tapi sampai bila nak tahan kehendak sendiri? Sampai bila nak sorokkan benda ni? sampai bila nak jadik pengecut?

Even semua tak confirm lagi, bila pikir benda tu pun dah cuak. Bila org tny kenapa, memang tak boleh jawab sedangkan benda ni yg kena first sekali prepare kalau dah confirm. Keputusan berani mati ni. Risiko tinggi sgt2.

Tak pernah terfikir dan tak mungkin diterima akal bg sesetgh orang. Anything boleh jadik kn. Kalau elak macam mane pun kalau benda nak jadik tetap akan jadik.

Adoiyai. Berat jugak kepala ni. Ape2 pun keputusan akan dibuat nanti. Bukan sekarang.

Blank

I just wanna say yes, but I can't. but I also can't say no. So, what should I do?
Gilalah. Dah lah nak dekat exam boleh pulak pikir pasal lain.

Focus 'Alia. Remember what are your priorities. Study and family. Lain2 would be next in the list, ok?

Deadline. Benci. Nak drag tak boleh coz it involve others. Argh..have to construct ayat yg best. Yang sedap telinga mendengarnya.

Nak run away from it, lagi la. Nothing can be solved if u run away. Face it with courage.

N to you, why this has to be our fate?

Kita belasah je nak tak? Lepas tu baru pikir. This is what we call adventure. Try and error. Tneet....maksudnya kena putuskan. If terus berdenyut, ada nadi means we continue.

Hahaha. Kepala dah weng.

To be continued....Study!!

Trap

I'm trap in my own words. I should just zip my mouth from saying it.

Oh God,what should I do? Keep the promise or search for a reason to save myself?
Hurm..I have 3 weeks to think about it. Lot of things I need to consider. Every single aspect. But I believe everything happened for a reason n we have the power to change the fate if we try our best.

p/s:thanks Enah for spending ur time listen to my story early in the morning.

Musim Kawin

Musim org kawin dah tiba..yes...kat fridge penuh with kad jemputan..but mostly are invitations for my parents..but today I went to one of my relative's wedding. After haven't meet or hear about her for a long time tup tup dah kawin. So happy for her.

I went there with A.Along because his family yang lain sakit mata. Sampai di majlis ternganga gak sebab I don't really know them except aunties and uncles yang rapat (sungguh terukkan kerana tidak kenal saudara sendiri). Tapi, lucky me, my favorite uncle n aunt sampai with their children a few minutes after that.

Makanan tadi memang best. If before this the foods were prepared by caterer but this time org kampung bergotong-royong menyiapkan makanan. Hardly to see that nowdays. Especially when the majlis is in the middle of KL. Lebih2 lagi memang yang masak adalah org Minang. Just name it from the nasi to the lauk n kuih. Siap ade lucky draw, tarian n pengantin baling duit n gula-gula for the kids. For me it was traditional enough bila wedding macam ni.

Then, sepupu n makcik n pakcik yang lain sampai. Borak punya borak tiba-tiba my cousin asked, "alia, bila nak pergi makan cendol lagi?".Sebabnya, a few months before we to Melacca konon-konon nak makan cendol tapi dek terlalu lama singgah di R&R, terlepas la peluang.

So, I told them, "No job = no money. No money = no cuti2 Malaysia.".
"Tapi, kalau Alia yang bawak dan ada org yg nak sponsor macam mane?". Dlm hati gembira sebab diorg sanggup sponsor. I just need to guide them.

"Ada org nak sponsor ke?", sudah tahu bertanya pula. "Tunggu Alia habis exam. Alia tak ada problem kalau nak pergi after exam." Begitulah kesudahannya cerita nak pergi makan cendol.

Then, next ques, "Lepas ni sapa yang naik pelamin?". People, don't look at me. Look someone else pls. The truth is, that event is not in my agenda for year 2010.

p/s:I miss my Angah. Thanks for the advices and supports. The burden dah kurang sikit. *hugs*

Ntah..tak tau...

aku tidak marah..tapi aku hanya kecewa kerana terlalu byk yg tidak diketahui hingga ke hari ini..tapi syukurlah...sekurang-kurangnya aku tidak tersilap langkah dalam membuat percaturan hidup sendiri..terima kasih Tuhan kerana memberi ku hati yg keras dan tidak mudah mengalah...

cuma aku berharap perkara yang sama tidak berulang di masa hadapan..