Cinta ker???

Mencintai dan menyanyagi seseorg yg kita pernah berjumpa walau sekali adalah tidak mustahil..aku percaya pada cinta pandangan pertama…byk kali perkara ini berlaku…waktu skolah dl ia boleh dianggap sebagai ‘crush’ tp bila perkara ini terjadi sekarang aku tidak lagi menganggap perasaan itu hny suka tp cinta dan sayang …walau hny di alam siber kami berjumpa dgn tidak pernah dgr suara tetapi siapa sangka pertemuan 15 minit sebelum itu boleh mengubah perasaan..btol la kata org dr mata jatuh ke hati…

Ade org yg beranggapan selepas putus cinta akibat di tipu amat sukar utk mencari penganti…aku tidak percaya kerana bg aku kita semua telah ditakdirkn akan berjumpa dengan pasangan masing2.. Cuma kita tidak tahu bila dan di mana..mane tahu jodoh kita adalah org yg selalu kita jumpa di dalam LRT atau pun sahabat sendiri (aku harap ini tidak akan berlaku)…bg aku perpisahan dulu adalah kerana tidak ade jodoh..bak kata mak aku kita kena percaya pada konsep jodoh…kalau tidak susah nnt…

Namun..sampai bila perasaan syg ini akan kekal? Org yg berkahwin berpuluh2 tahun sehingga rambut berubah dari hitam ke putih pn boleh bercerai…tapi aku???yg hny berjumpa di alam siber..sekadar hai,hai,bye,bye..macam mana la agaknya…bolehkah perasaan ini kekal lama…aku mengharapkan ia akan berkekalan tapi…..argh…kalo cakap skarang tak de maknanya…aku tau mungkin aku hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan sebab itu aku tidak mengharap apa2 dari perhubungan ini melainkan persahabatan kami kekal…

Ada beberapa kali aku cakap ayat ini ‘no one can attract my attention..i don’t see any guy that can make me say he’s handsome, smart or good looking anymore…but only him..’..aduh…teruk jugakkan bila pikir balik tapi disebabkan aku pun malas nak pikir hal2 berkaitan dengan cinta… aku sudah puas menangis,ditipu,dihina,ditinggalkan.. aku sekarang lebih berhati2..apa yg berlaku pernah berlaku benar2 mengajar aku siapa ‘LELAKI’..dengan pengalaman mereka yg aku sayangi lagi ditambah pula kritikan pedas oleh seseorg yg mengatakan aku amat mudah utk menerima lelaki walau hny berkenalan tidak lama..maka kini aku berpegang pada prinsip ‘ignorance is a bliss’ :-)

Rimas....

tetiba today I feel so rimas...argh...work loads..my sisters' things...gosh..a few days to go before I'm going to Melbourne to see my beloved sisters but things still hvn't done yet...makin lama makin byk la brg yg kena beli..I think btol la my bag will full with their stuff...

A lot of things that I'm thinking right know...should I apply new work? There are a few vacancies that I am considering right now..nk update resume yg malas ni..money always become an issue to me lately...coz now I am broke buying them stuff...another reason to change work...

but hey...since I will b taking a week off I'm quite ok with it...so far I still can handle this pressure at work...think again about work...I just answered 'How much u hate or love ur work' quiz..and the answer....ehem..I TOTALLY HATE my job..hahaha...I think its time for me to apply for a new job eventhough mayb middle of this yr there will b another assesment but the motivation is not there anymore...if you ask me do I like what I'm doing right now my answer would be Im fine with it..neutral..neither hate nor like...but I hate the env here...the people..urgh...if u read my post about the meeting mayb u have some idea wat's going on here...

Do pray for me ya for my future..and everything go well as I plan...amin...

Nice smile with the great teeth

lagu Lucky dendangan Jason Mraz berbunyi di telefon ku menandakan ade msg yg baru diterima. Owhh...Laila rupa nye. Msg nya berbunyi begini: "dh pakai braces. sgt hodoh"..welcome to da club Laila. Bertambah lagi sorg kwn aku yg pki braces. Terngat balik zaman aku memakainya 8 thn lps (yes ppl..that's why I have a teratur teeth..hahaha). Dan skarg patut pki retainer tp malas + app card dah hilang.

Sewaktu aku memakai braces dulu tak ramai yg pakai lg. Skarg dh mcm ala-ala trend plak. in less than 3 month rasa2 mcm 3 org kawan aku yg pakai. Tak pe nak lawa punya psl. Bg yg tak penah rasa and bakal merasa pakai braces ni, let me tell u, sakit gile mula2 pakai. rasa mcm nk tercabut gigi tu. makan tu tak bleh,ini tak bleh. yg keras lagi la. Dah la aku pakai 2 days kot b4 raya..hahaha...mmg kena pantang la makan wkt raya. tapi aku blasah jer sume. first day lagi dah makan kacang goreng. hehehe.. Ade beberapa perkara menarik yg berlaku sepanjang 2 thn aku pki braces.

1. my cousin pukul/tumbuk or wateva yg bleh dipggl 2 days after aku pakai. bertambah sakit n aku menangis. nasib skit jer. she spoiled my day actually
2. ade bdk yg melihat aku ala2 mcm alien. siap pggl abg die nk tunjuk gigi aku..so funny.. wat can i do besides smiling back at them :)
3. every month pegi appoinment jarang kalo tak de org temankn..slalunyer ruzanna yg teman. I think bcoz she liked to look at my braces. ntah ape yg special pn tak tau. bila tny die juz jwb "i juz like to look at it"
4. lps pegi appoinment bleh meronggeng kat KLCC sbb bangunan yg aku pg tu sbelah jer KLCC. Bangunan Angkasa Raya. I still remember ade skali tu aku n laila pegi mkn BR. kaya sungguh kami.
5. I will choosed appointment ari Jumaat coz that day blk awal. Then esok cuti. seronok nye..pastu pakai bj seragam. takde sape tau kitaorg skolah ape dl. mmg la ppl will pandang lain mcm tp wat the heck. tak kisah pn.
6. org lain kena makan roti,bubur or ape2 yg lembut dlm masa semggu lps pakai. Aku??kuih, rendang,kuah kacang..name it..i juz ate. ask me how i can ate those thing tp aku tak tau. tak kunyah kot. org lain kurus bila pakai tp aku tak maintain jer.
7. first week pki kena ulser berlambak.then the dr. gv me sumthg yellowish to tampal kat besi2 tu so that tak bergesel ngan my bibir. sakit sgt.
8. few times trtelan getah kecik2 tu. getah2tu utk cptkn pros rapatkn the space between teeth.coz mls nk cabut kot.getah tu still aku simpan.mcm2 color ade.
   
9. my dentist, Dr David, always puji me i hv a great structure n i take care of my braces well. Ayah ckp mmg la die puji coz his money gak yg melayang masuk poket Dr. David but i admit that he is nice tak kasar mayb wkt bukak n ketatkn the wire jer kot.
10. everytime dtg appointment wire akan diketatkn.guna player. n makin lama makin tebal wire tu. makin sakit jdk nye.usually i dont eat the whole day after pg appoinment.
    
11. i miss i braces. i like to wear it coz i feel diff. now im suppose to wear a retainer. it more complicated than braces. aku hny berthn for 2 yrs jer after that masuk UM dh tak teratur. ade niat nk pg buat retainer blk coz gigi kita sentiasa bergerak, so i dont want itto b back to normal. mahal la nk buat skarg. rm5k.see how,when i have the time.hehehe...
    

according to my siz, org yg pki braces ni kalo tdo or trjg the gigi will ade satu sound mcm bergesel.aku pn tak tau btol ker tak since i'm the one yg tdo. n if u wear bfore ur baby tooth tumbuh, bersedialah utk mnghadapi satu lagi penyakit. which is bila gigi bongsu tu tumbuh msti something wrong will happen and kna buat surgery like me. which costed me a lot.

so to those yg br pakai n niat nk pakai..welcome to the club..love to see those smile..with the great teeth.. :)

A New Kind Of Date Rape

Casual hookups, mixed signals, and alcohol play a part in a confusing form of sexual assault. Here, everything you need to know about what some people call gray rape.

While I'm searching something at cosmopolitan.com, i came across this interesting article/story, New Kind Of Date Rape. A true story in fact which make me think that the case would not happen if we can control ourselves. So, who us to blame? and who should we blame when this thing happen to us?

You can read more here.

A Boring Dept Meeting

hurm...early this morning we had a dept meeting with marilyn. As usual nothing much that had been discussed in the meeting except to update our status on the cases that we r handling and some others. Well, since one of the management account hasn't come in so I do not hv any job to do (well..actually I have tp skit jer nk kna finalise jer), Marilyn put me as asst to Pei Yee one of the senior. I dont mind working with her but the reactions from some of the colleagues made me annoyed. They laughed. Somekind of laugh which I knoe ade makna disebalik ketawa itu. I just ignored by talking to Mashi. Nasib baik Mashi ade..die tmpt cover gak.

When we went to our place Marini came to me and asked me if I realized that they laughed just now and I said yes. But I said I dont care wat they thinking but I think I know why and I have my own reason why I acted like that. Just to defend myself from been blame for something I didn't do. Honestly, I feel like resingning from my job. The environment is not the same as before plus with others issues. But I'm stuck. If I want to find another job and with current econ I noe it's hard for me to get a new job. Plus, I have my own plan which I know if I resign my parents will be so mad.

I'm a slow learner. I'm still trying to cope with this job eventhough audit is not my interest. I need to bertahan as long as I can.